[ Shay’s Journal ] It is always a good start, no matter how it will end.
I learnt it from the beautiful sunset
I think I am in a good mood now. Welcoming my morning with a good thought, with a better self-confident. I would not let my mind to think too complicated this time. All I need is to be calm, be grateful, and put more smiles on face. I felt a good energy after significantly reduce my dependancy on social media, even to a phone in overall. It is nice! Although I am still look for it, but it only spent some time if I just get a little bored. Hope I can maintain and afford this kind of lifestyle for longer time. I need to change, I urge to change! I know it will not easy but I will keep trying. I’ll maintain positive activities and if I get down sometime, I will just let myself do. I am forgiving myself, I am happy as I am.
Sometimes I still feel worry on my future, but hey, all I need is now to be more present in mylife. I’ll do one-by-one my tasks with no rush, because I have my own pace and I am grateful for this. I know I am not a good person but at least I can be a more better person from day to day. I only need to keep going, keep praying.
Today is a good day to start a new thing. This energy may come from the sunny day today and a good sleep. I am still working on to get a proper sleep and maintain my new routines. I can do better everyday!
In fact, last night I am just realised that I am not good enough in writing. But I choose to not giving up!
Beside reducing the social media consumption, I also start to consume only self-made cooking meals. Although I am still struggle to avoid the smells of a bowl of noodle if I have no evergy to cook. I let myself to still eat that food and I will not feel guilty.
It is true, I only need to accept everything that come to me: good and bad. And it is always a good day to start new thing, to start your new day. Even it seems no beatiful end, I look up the sky, I see a beautiful sunset. Those beautiful sunset may only came in a little time, to close the day. The thing is: It is beautiful.
