[ Story ] Tuesday question Day.

I woke up late and feel no good today. I thought I have flu symptom since last night even though I have plan to do cycling this morning. In short, today’s plan has been canceled and I am now glued to the bed, trying to recover my mood to do activities. I start with this writing.

I keep daydreaming for hours since I woke up. Not really sure on what I actually think about. I starring to the bed lamp and my head feel heavy. I think I have common cold, I am hiding in my blanket right now. I feel sleepy and drained. I feel pain in my foot joints and it must be because of my last hike. Even though, I want to do cycling today. But I think I need more rest.

I am always curious on what happened to myself. I often to do self analyze to know how I feel and how I supposed to react. I start to learn any emotions that came to me and admit it. It is not everytime I can deal with certain feelings and consciously welcoming them. Today, I handle it better. Sometimes I just go somewhere aimlessly, sometimes I punch the wall with my hand, even sometimes I just cried out loud with no reasons. At the very least, I start to stop will die everytime I woke up.

It is better to take my pain killer now.